Ray Griggs is a Naval Academy graduate (1980) and a classmate of my brother, Steve. He is a  retired Marine Lieutenant Colonel, presently working for the Department of the Army supporting a Lithuanian-led Provincial Reconstruction Team in Afghanistan.

I am on his email distribution and when I received and read this (on 1/19), I immediately wanted to share it. Enjoy.

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As I count down my last days here, let’s start with the night sky.  It is incredibly clear and you can see more stars than you imagined ever existed!  We’re in the mountains, far from any industry, have enough wind to blow the smoke away that you get from the wood and brush used to heat homes in the area, and have almost no man-made ambient light.  When it was warmer, I would not want to go inside at night because the sky was so beautiful.  And now, even though it is sub-zero on some nights, I still linger when I’m outside.  I’ve seen two full lunar eclipses, both of full moons.  Watched moonlight reflect off the snow on the western edge of the Hindu Kush Mountains.  The Milky Way has never been so distinct.  Orion’s Belt is the most recognizable celestial feature, the three bright stars lined up as the Hunter stalks his prey across the night sky.  Watched the sky turn from black to grey to blue with a few people from the “Greet the Sun” Club.

Always wondered if the airplane lights miles above our heads were commercial airliners traveling to someplace where I could walk around without body armor or if those blinking lights were a combat air patrol, waiting for a radio call to drop into action.  I’ve watched the number of lights coming from the homes that we can see on the hills around the base increase as the city of Chagcharan expands and more people can afford their own generators or connect to the struggling power grid—if you can call it that.   I’ve seen the western horizon “polluted” by the light of the solar street lights that our dedicated USAID people here worked on, bringing some welcome security and convenience to the local populace.

I’ll always remember the farewell dinner hosted by the Danish Contingent as they completed their mission in Ghor Province, dining and drinking by candlelight (and chemlight) outdoors, the lights above us more majestic than any chandelier could ever be.

However, will not miss the sight of a 107mm rocket passing 50 meters over our head when I spent the night at an Afghan Police Station to our east when I was traveling with a patrol escorting two Lithuanian geologists, exploding upon impact about 200 meters beyond the wire.  Very pretty as it went by, exhaust sparkling as the engine roared.  The explosion sent up some nice-looking fireworks, until you realized the fireworks were hot pieces of spinning metal, hoping to find a human target.  Fortunately for us, none did.

I have one more full moon left in Afghanistan, and I will treasure it.

Ray

On Greatness

Ali was the Greatest. He told us so in no uncertain terms. In 1882 Oscar Wilde, upon disembarking in New York is reported to have told the Customs Agent, “I have nothing to declare but my genius.” These men, and many other people, knew of their greatness, were comfortable with it and were not shy in letting the world know about it.

I could be great. I want to be great. In some small ways, I am great. But I would like more greatness. I know that no one will ever send me an email with a link to a checklist, “To Be Great, Complete These Steps.” How cool would that be? No, if I am going to be great, or greater, I am going to have to work at it. The issue here is that I am uncertain of where to focus my efforts.

I have varied interests, scattered as it were. Plus I am a big bag o’ contradictions. I have a great resume but no job. I have no job and yet I am very busy. I work on long-term projects and write novels and yet I feel as though I have the attention span of a radish. I’m a reasonably smart man and yet I do dumb things all the time.

So how does one get to greatness? I suspect it is practice, hard work and persistence. How do you get to Carnegie Hall? Practice, practice, practice. And not just practice, but deliberate practice; practice that you can measure, practice that is consistent, practice that shows your results and points out whether you are improving or not – feedback as it were.
If this were easy, we would all be great. This would be Lake Woebegone. But it’s not easy. If I am to attain greatness, I will need to practice. I will need to identify what needs work and then work at it.

But there’s a rub. There’s always a rub. I am a generalist – which to me means that I love to do lots of things well, while I might never do any of them great. I suspect greatness means greatness at one thing. It might be a big thing like commanding troops across a theater of operations. It might be a relatively small thing like making a free throw every time.

For me, this is where the attention span issue arises. This is where the question of focus rears its ugly head. Lack of focus has about it a stench of defeat that hangs in the air like the funk of halitosis after a zesty garlic and onion bagel.
Perhaps my focus can be on generalized greatness. I can practice at being great. People will ask, “How are you?” and I will reply, “Great!” and actually mean it.

“How was your day?” “Great!”

“How was lunch?” “Great!”

“Have any plans for the weekend?” “No, but it’s gonna be GREAT!”

Greatness, here I come!

Many people get up and go to work each day, getting little real satisfaction out of their jobs. They are good at what they do, they like the people they work with, they make the best of their situation. But they don’t enjoy their jobs. Modern life dictates that we have jobs, neatly organized and defined by policy and procedure, or by function. Little is offered in the way of creativity or individual thought. Individual thought is neither required nor encouraged.

Writers and speakers have commented on it. Someone, I think it was Paul Graham, commented that people, especially creative people, require long uninterrupted stretches of time to think, to work, to create. I subscribe to this train of thought. The jobs that I have had rarely required continuous thought for time periods longer than, say, 15 minutes. There is a meeting that must be attended, a phone call that must be returned or someone poking their head into your office/cube just wanting to say hi. These jobs may have required a long view, i.e. the project must be completed within 6 months, but they have not require concerted effort for more than some small amount of time. There are exceptions, of course, but as a rule your attention is pulled in a hundred directions.

Concentration is a skill, a talent that must be worked at. I find that I am more impatient than I was in the past; I get halfway through an article and find my mind wandering. I work on something and am suddenly distracted by the radio. I feel like a cat when it suddenly bolts into the next room for no apparent reason. I need, I want to be able to concentrate on a single thing. I want to be able to express my thoughts in a longer form than Facebook allows.

And so I will work on having the discipline to carve out significant blocks of time to work, to create, to think. I will afford myself the opportunity to walk down a path to see where it goes, to experiment and fail and experiment again. Just as my attention span has been curtailed through practice, it will now expand through practice.

And I will… oooh look, shiney!

I have been unemployed for four months now and I am actively job searching. I was let go as a part of a comprehensive downsizing at my company. No big deal – I was expecting it and it was no real surprise when it went down. Frankly, it was a good run and I feel as though we parted ways amicably. I have nothing bad to say about it.

My resume is in pretty good shape and my experience rocks. I have led an interesting and varied career, usually associated with real estate and finance – sometimes closely associated and sometimes only tangentially associated but usually associated. It has been a great run and I took the summer off for any number of reasons.

Then I woke up about a month ago and found myself thinking, “I need a job.” And so I do. The problem is that while some people know exactly what they are or want to be, my experience is varied; a jack of all trades, that’s me. I struggle with where to look. Certainly, I have some leads, even some pretty hot leads. One in particular started out red hot but a giant corporation’s HR department is glacially slow and so I have lowered my expectations. Something may happen, but if it does not I will not be surprised. Que sera.

I live in one of the consistently top five places for bad traffic in the nation, the Washington DC metropolitan area. I don’t really want a huge commute but I suppose that the job market and the opportunities that it provides me will dictate my commute. We’ll see. If I get my way I will have a tolerable commute.

Some of the things I have done: managed reporting teams, developed scorecards and reports for senior management, ran a not-for-profit record company, master of special projects, developed strategy, mitigated regulatory concerns, developed and implemented large scale projects, managed programs, stock broker, financial analyst, cowboy, Indian chief.

On the personal side I have written a number of novels, a screenplay (with a writing partner) and produced several records. I still play in a band. I build and fix things in my shop. I spent a lot of time this summer getting things done around the house; regrouting bathrooms, painting, fixing drywall, hanging art, installing thresholds, expanding and managing the home network (geeky, I know – I love this stuff), built Adirondack chairs for the back yard, added on to the deck, planted gardens, built rockets and a tennis ball mortar, turned an old water ski into a skateboard, made wine bottle lights; I’ve kept busy.

The question is, now what? Wade back in to corporate America and toil away for the next 20 years? Probably. I’m good at it; I have done that well and will do it well again, and with gusto if that’s the path that presents itself. One of the things I am is a leader rather than just a manager. It is a skill not taught at business schools across our nation.

Maybe I will write some more. I’m sure I will but unfortunately that doesn’t pay the bills. I could advocate for an enjoyable life for all. Not a life of ease, necessarily, but a life that one could really enjoy. That sounds interesting.

Regardless, I am now pursuing gainful employment. I rock. If you want to see my resume, click here.

I’ll keep you posted.

Stocks are up and down like a roller coaster. Investors, both personal and institutional, are working to decipher the Fed’s message. Irrationality reigns.

What do you do?

Me? I do nothing. I simply cannot and will not get caught up in the whipsaw effect caused by the S&P’s ratings, the Fed’s actions, etc. These things are outside of my control and so I simply don’t worry about them. I believe in American capitalism and I believe in the strength of American industry and industriousness. We are, after all, the country that produces more patents than any other. Including: Bovine Methane collection devices, the Banana Suitcase and the Snake Leash. Yes, really.

It seems to me that the markets are still (still!) reacting to the meltdown of 2008, that we have tried to keep business at levels set in a time of orgiastic spending. Unattainable to be sure. Until the new normal is finally found, we will continue to step down. The economy will settle, the public will get comfortable, the traders will work very hard to inflate values and the economy will rise for a while but will then react and slide down to the next level – a gentle stepping down not unlike those cigarette patch commercials. Eventually we will reach a level where frenzied unceasing efforts to inflate values will not destabilize but rather room to grow will be there. And grow we will, like crazy.

There is a school of thought out there called long wave theory that posits that economies rise and fall in long twenty to thirty year cycles and that within those cycles are relatively smaller gains and losses. These cycles are interrupted only by global events. Maybe we are in the middle of an adjustment of one of these long waves, the downward adjustment of a cycle that was unsustainable. You know, a bubble. Which of course means that once we reach equilibrium there is a long period of growth ahead.

The games being played are well beyond my sphere of influence, so I whistle while I work (or rather while I look for work), and go on my merry way intentionally oblivious.

This week the Mega Millions jackpot was over $380 million. That’s a lot of cabbage. While fantasizing about what I might do with that much money is a regular pastime for me and for lots of you out there, I gave this one some special thought due to its size. After all, size matters.

They say that instant wealth ruins a man. I would like the opportunity to prove them wrong. So, here we go.

  • First, my home phone would be forwarded to an answering service. I’ll keep the number because I’ve had it for so long, but I’m no longer picking it up. I will no longer take calls; I will return them. If you are important, you will have my direct line. If you are important, you probably have my cell number now.
  • My kids would get to go to the Mercersburg Academy in PA for high school. Great place. My wife attended Mercersburg. Granted, that’s a few years away but still, I would plan for it.
  • Our financial planner would hear from us a LOT more. He rocks. I foresee trust accounts.
  • I would not be one of those people who goes back to work on Monday morning. Nope – no way. I’m sleeping in every day if I want to. Frankly, it seems to me that the people who tell the world (at the obligatory press conference) that the money won’t change them, that they’ll still go to work every day – they have no imagination. I won’t even be in tomorrow. Not me. In fact I’ll probably be hung over tomorrow, a result of the celebration. I suspect tequila will have been involved.
  • I would give no money to charity for a while. Oh, I’ll give it away eventually but not until the attention has died down and the next sucker lottery winner has been identified. And don’t knock on my door. I’m not giving to the Retired Police Dogs with Scabies Foundation. The RPDSF will have to leave a message that I won’t return (see the first item above). After a while, perhaps a year, I’ll consider some donations.
  • I’m going surfing. Wherever I please. Wherever the surf is breaking. Hanalei would be a good place to start.
  • The rest of the family will get a piece. I’ll spread it around some but rest assured that I’m keeping most of it.
  • I’m moving to someplace warm, probably San Diego. The move might take a while, but I’ll get there. Feel free to come for a visit. Call first.
  • While we’re still in Virginia, I’m turning the thermostat up to 72 from the current 68. Live large, that’s what I say.
  • I’m going to indulge in a few toys – a couple of cars, a couple of guitars, a new skateboard, some lovely gifts for my lovely bride, some things for my kids. I’ll try not to overdo it but will probably fail in that regard. As much as I’d like to, I just can’t pretend that there aren’t some things that I want.
  • Then I would set up the foundation and see what the future brings.

How about you? What would you do?

Meh.

I’m really struggling with this post. I read an op-ed piece in the Washington Post the other day about how America has a New Elite, loosely defined as educated people who prefer to spend their leisure hours with other educated people – be it in college, in their professional life or in their personal life, and about how these people are from America but not of it.

The author, Charles Murray, was one of the authors of “The Bell Curve.” He seems to be advocating for the Tea Party (TP) movement, indicating that TPers better represent the Real America (emphasis mine) than do the educated populations that cluster around a relatively few of the larger cities in America.

By this standard any educated person living in Little Italy or Chinatown or Little Saigon found in any sizeable city in America, are less American than others who have managed to acculturate, integrate and be absorbed completely into the existing fabric of American society. (Cheetos and Glenn Beck for all!) By virtue of retaining some hold on a past way of life, these groups would be branded as lesser American. Acculturation and integration are vitally important to success here in America, but wholesale abandonment of a way of life as a requirement to be American? Bullshit on a pogo stick.

In addition to the clustering, there is some discussion of not marrying outside of the ill-defined boundaries he ascribes to the New Elite group. “When the New Elite get around to marrying, they don’t marry just anybody,” Mr. Murray says.

One might insert the word “Asians” or “African-Americans” or “Latinos” or “Jews” or “Southerners” or “people from Nebraska” or “Presbyterians” here in place of “New Elite.” We gravitate to people like us, right? We are attracted to people whose values and beliefs are like ours. For better or worse, we do; that much seems to be human nature.

By these standards, I guess I’m one of the New Elite. I have a masters degree (MBA, baby!). I live in the suburbs of one of his pre-defined cities. I work in Finance. I don’t watch NASCAR or Oprah or Dr. Phil or Dancing With the Stars. I married a woman who is WAY smarter than I am. I’m helping my 3rd and 6th grade kids with homework on subjects that I was taught much later in my academic career. I’m hoping my children will grow up to be successful, educated, independent thinkers.

Mr. Murray seems to indicate that America’s educated populace is somehow less American than those of lesser education who love Oprah (“They know who Oprah is, but they’ve never watched one of her shows from beginning to end.”)* He seems to believe that the spectrum of what is “American” is defined by some static set of rules dictating that patriotism, or American-ism is inversely correlated to education or geographic preference. It is as though he is looking for a way to let people know that it is OK to remain both ignorant and morally superior. Good luck with that.

People will always be spread across the socioeconomic spectrum. Someone has to be on top, someone has to be on the bottom.

I am a proud American, from America and of America. I am a product of the American public school system from kindergarten through grad school. While I may be a member of the New Elite I am not elitist. Shame on you Mr. Murray. You are the worst type of snob.
*I have a job. I don’t have the opportunity to be at home every afternoon to watch Oprah.

From today’s CNN:

“Listen, we do not yet have a symbol that translates into sarcasm (despite lofty efforts by the folks over at Sarcmark), and the hashtag is no exception. So, for now, stick to being caustic and dry, and even then, watch your mouth. Not everyone is socially fluent enough to recognize superior wit when they see it. #JustSayin’…”

Clearly they have not read about the Tilde of Disdain. They need to be informed.

I hate the dentist. Not, “Find it annoying.” Not, “It’s an inconvenience.” Hate it. And my dentist is a nice guy. He is an excellent dentist and his staff is very amiable. Still, I hate it. I am able to trace this absolute abhorrence to my youth. I grew up in a military household and we moved every few years. The dentists we saw were military dentists who, in retrospect, were probably very capable. But I doubt it.

It used to be that the military was a place to apprentice your profession for something like this. A person could become a dentist in the Navy with the intention of carrying on in the profession after his (always his) hitch was up. This meant that they were practicing on me. And that meant pain. I hate the dentist. It hurts. It always hurts.

Add to that the fact that I was a junior, meaning that I was not in the military myself but rather just a child, and that means that the care, while not subpar, was not state of the art either. I can still smell that odor that comes with teeth being drilled, the high pitched whine of the drill as bits of my mouth were ground away, to be filled with an evil mixture that contains equal parts silver, mercury, eye of newt and and dessicated bat wing.

The tray that sits meekly next to the dentist seat (are those arm restraints?) is cold, laying out the medieval tools that will soon pierce your gums; pointy, sharp, gleaming in the harsh light of the industrial overhead lighting while Muzak plays softly in the background. The saliva/blood sucker you stick in your mouth, the sink that you inevitable spit the aforementioned saliva/blood into, the klieg lights that peer into your very soul straight through the cavity in your upper left molar.

I rationally know that I should go to the dentist twice a year, but I hesitate. Why? Because I hate it. I sit in the seat with my eyes closed clutching at the arm rest until my forearms cramp, bearing the pain and the ongoing chatter: “Oooh, look at that pocket – that’s a deep one. Hmmm, seems like a lot of calculus. Doctor? Come take a look at this. Do you floss? You still have your wisdom teeth. You should have those removed.”

Yes. I floss daily, sometimes more often if I’ve had something like corn on the cob. I brush several times a day. I use Listerine. I’m due for a cleaning now and I have not scheduled it. The dentist’s office keeps track of these things and calls to remind me that I’m overdue. Fortunately, I have caller ID so I can be even more effective in ignoring them. I don’t care. I’ll go when I’m good and ready or when my wife makes an appointment, whichever comes first. But I won’t go willingly. I hate the dentist.

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